Friday, February 20, 2009

I don't even think we're close to being best friends anymore. We're more like. . . acquaintances now. Yeah, sometimes we have our bonding moments like we used to, but overall. . . . it's just not a friendship anymore. You went your way and I went mine.

I can't say I like the way you went, and when I speak up about it, you shoot me down. Your other friends are bad influences on you, and you don't realize it. I thought when we were younger, you'd at least mature more, but you haven't. Not one bit.

I hate it when I am around you and your friends, you always make me the loser. You don't realize you do it, but you do.

"Oh, yeah, that's my friend Emily. She never talks. She doesn't really do anything."

"Does she party?" they ask as though I'm not anywhere near them.

I'm right fucking here, you can ask me, you know.

"No, I don't." I say.

You all stare.

"Told you," my friend says.

"Why are you so quiet?" one of her friends asks me.

"She's always quiet!" my friend says.

The only reason I hardly talk around your other friends is because I don't like them. They're a bunch of fucking losers. They need to get a life, and so do you pretty soon. You're falling right down with them.

I don't know if I outgrew you or what, but you're just unbearable now, friend.

I feel sorry for you and I wish you'd listen to me, rather than shoot me down all the time.

Am I going to have to corner you to get you to listen to me?

Because right now? You're impossible.

Absofuckinglutely impossible.


blognut said...

Honey, let her go. You're going to meet people like that all your life, but they don't have to be allowed to hurt you. Yeah, I totally want to hug you right now.

p-huong said...

Aw, I'm sorry to hear about your friend... It sucks how we grow up and go our different ways. It happens and the ones that matter will stick around. And if they don't happen to stick around... their loss. And everyone's gotta do their own thing.

Anonymous said...

she sounds like my best friend...i hate her 14 years later.