Monday, September 28, 2009

how far would you go?

I have been crazy about you for 17 years. I talk to your sister, your brothers and your parents fairly regularly, even though we all live 800 miles apart now. You have never been as closely involved with anyone as you have with me. You changed your phone number in July and still haven't bothered to tell me the new one.
 
I got a postcard today from a guy I had one date with two months ago. He lost his phone (and my number) in a river and wanted to make sure that I knew he hadn't blown me off. Asked me to please call.
 
You are history.
 
-anonymous

9 comments:

Jodi said...

Good for you! Wise move.

Anonymous said...

where have you gotten the strength? there is someone I am loving from far away..but he can't tell me his home address, won't answer text, calls, or emails..but when I am in town, he sees me. and then some. I should move on but cant' seem to find the strength..where does it come from?

TMCPhoto said...

anonymous:

it's like quitting an addictive drug that is killing you you go cold turkey and you turn in the opposite direction and move forward.

It's not easy, it's a day at time, week at a time, month at a time thing.

I did it 14 years ago and I still think about him and wonder and I'm happily married with a family who I wouldn't trade for anything.

There comes a time when you just can't wait around anymore because the window when things might have moved forward has slid shut with neither of you noticing. In the end you have to choose yourself over the game playing and the emotional rollercoaster.

country mouse said...

Turning your back on something you've thought about and hoped for over such a long period of time is crazy hard to do. Good for you!

Anonymous said...

thanks, TMCphoto. hard to do, but maybe it is time. how long can I wait?

Salubrious Fervor said...

Anon-- It comes from YOU. You can't look around and find it. When you realize you are worth more than empty time and space you will have found it.

Anonymous said...

I guess you finally realized that he just wasn't that into you.

Anonymous said...

yes yes and yes. going through divorce and "he" was someone from high school. met after the proceedings began and somehow reconnected..but he is just so absent sometimes...I suppose I need to take care of me and if or when he thinks he might be there, then it will be up to me to decide if I even want him anymore.

phd in yogurtry said...

Moving on can feel sooo good after the spell where you feel sooo bad. It's hard but it's worth it. Hearts heal and move on to healthy pastures.